Seven

All the mugging stuff got cleared up. Everything was just a big miscommunication I suppose. Such a waste of time. I’m glad everything is cleared but, I feel weird. I can’t exactly put my finger on it, but something has been off lately. Or more than usual at least. I think it might be dad. This whole situation reminds me a little bit of him a couple years ago.
Dad was the suspect in murder case a while back. I was about 6, I guess. Some woman in his office was murdered on her way out of the building and somehow he got mixed up in it. I couldn’t imagine him having anything to do with it, but all the evidence got twisted into turning him into a bad guy. Maybe he was. Never to me of course. But still. Everyone has a hidden side. I just didn’t know it at the time. It was crazy.

I didn’t really understand a lot that was going on but it was the first time I realized my dad might not be the superman I thought he was. He told me all the time to “believe him” and “trust him” like I didn’t already. Why did he need to tell me that? Edith was still just a baby. Maybe hadn’t even been born in the beginning of it. I couldn’t talk to her about it. And she definitely didn’t know what was going on. I just remember my dad being frustrated and tired more often. Sad sometimes, maybe a little angry but he was mostly just tired. I think. It was the first time I’d ever questioned whether my dad was good or not. I’d always assumed. I mean, come on. He was just dad.

Obviously he’s not in jail. They found the real guy that did it. He was a real creep looking back on it. They shoulda known from the start.

It’s all in the past now. I don’t even know why I’m talking about it. It’s been years and years. Sometimes I forget it ever happened. It just popped up in my mind today for some reason. I guess we do have similar situations. But whatever. Maybe the guilty look just runs in my family.

I’ve always kinda wanted to ask dad about it, but am scared that he’ll get mad or sad or tired. I feel like he’d rather just forget about the whole thing. He’s got a tendency to forget stuff anyway. I don’t know if it’s possible to forget somethings though. No matter how much you convince yourself it didn’t happen or at least not to you, deep down you know exactly what happened.